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siiiigh. it's 4:43AM in the morning and i just finished changing my blog. how's the new layout? i think the girl has a weird face. suppose to have done one maths paper by now but.... nothing... argh. never mind. came here to destress. must not remind myself how many hmwk i have. yuck. yuck.
oh ya. on my layout... the girl? nxt time you read magazines like Style or Cleo you might want to pay attention to the advertisments. especially Hermes's. lolx. arrr... shouldn't have said dat. den you can compare and realise that it really looks weird lah. Plus i dunnoe why the words squeeze all the way to the scrollbar. had been trying to fix that but can't understand the html. yuck yuck. and the sun! why does it look red? suppose to be orange. arrrgh. red sun. cannot stand it. yuck yuck yuck. sighhh...

realise that these days very bad tempered. dunnoe why. hols. suppose to relax and refresh yourself. but with every single teacher tellin us that our yr is exceptionally stupid, how much are you relax? planned my timetable. already not followin leh. no lah. i will. just after i finish blogging. very stressful... lookin at my timetable. waaah. oh ya, back to my pt. Very bad mood. Tue, came hm from studyin at mac's, asked me what i finished. so i told her 'one english paper' (so true!) and then she started saying 'huh?! so slow? blah blah blah blah...' of course i got irritated! My 2nd sis and bro were packing bag to go USA. lucky them. my brother almost killed me when he said "Actually i'm not excited". WAT. THE. irritating blasthole. Over time, my temper got worse and by 1am it was rotting like hell. Then my brother just came and took my scotch tape. Very normal. But i kicked up a fuse. No lah. not arguing. My family doesn't argue. I just stood beside him and stared at him while he happily pulls metre after metre of my scotch tape and tapes his stupid stuff. Then after he was done, he just left the tape there and i purposely banged my scotch tape onto my table. oh wellsss...
Then today, wake up at 7 for Chem class. Was sssooo tired i didn't even feel like eating breakfast. Then she nagged at me all the way to the door. sigh. whole of chem class i was sleeping. in front of ms sim some more. thinkin back, it was so horrible. felt like someone was constantly piling bricks on top of my head and tryin to do karate on those bricks. Then ms sim ask why i'm so sleepy and i looked blankly at her. sigh.... reached hm, mum asked me to buy back my own lunch. So i told her i'm not hungry now. i buy later. but she insist on me going to buy bread and say i lazy. I just went to sleep. cannot stand it leh. den she woke me up and ask me why i'm so tired. O.o wat kind of logic is that? Then she said "I one night don't sleep also not so tired!" argh. i just went back to sleep and ignored her. =( then just now tried to install photoshop, but can't find the cd. Got so mad i kicked the metal drawer and cracked my toenail. hmmmmm....... oh wells.

Madagasca was fun. And the hippie song. What are foosas? Still got the scene of emmy, huihui and vivi stickin their heads into the cardboard stuck in my head. Sec 4 dance rocks. lolx. and forever will.

Yupx, i'm here again. exam results sucks as usual. our principal lectured us again.... on posting pictures on the internet. she got me so scared i'm g0nna add a password to my photos. better safe than sorrie ya? yupx, that website is D-I-S-G-U-S-T-I-N-G! yucKS! no other words for it! the owner must be perverted too! to allow all that. lolx. i'm not naming names here! i never did but i still got into trouble. oh wells. that's another story. but seriously. if you go take a look at all the photos posted there? you'll seriously start to suspect that it's an insider job. The photos are so up-to-date! I don't think much people will be as boh liao as to go visiting cedarian's webbie everyweek just to see if there are new photos to proach. It looks like someone took those photos and put it up herself. and that just piss and gross me out. she must be really deprived of humanity and basic emotions. if she's so desperately boh liao with more free time than a bunch of salmons trying to swim up Nigara Falls at the wrong season, i suggest she go and revise her hmwork. it's more productive.

one day when her name surfaces [if such a person exist, i seriously think she will be caught... i mean if they can find saddam hussien, they can find anyone rite?] i think the whole of cedar is going to slam and condemn her. *rolls eyeballs* i can already imagine myself making the chicken wing obi-good thingy at her. ar.... but that brings me to another point! i just read this book my sis bought. about dealing with people. it says that people who are condemned and punished often do not know what they did wrong and still think they're right. they had plenty of comical real life examples in there which just makes you realise how dim-witted some humans really are. so i suggest we refer her to the Institude of Mental Health where they probably know better how to handle such *ahem* dangerous cases.

Right... i'm back. after one month plus? Why am i even here? i don't feel like blogging.... argh

it's 3:15am and i'm still in my guides U from Vs campfire. ahhh!!! i stink!
oh yeh! Vs campfire ROCKS! and we won Best Supporting! i'm so so so happy.
finally
Haven felt like that in months.
sec4 life. i love it yet i hate it like hell. how?
The new Guides blog blog skin rocks. so cute. and the drawing thingy? so cool.
whoever took the effort to put it up. thanks lots.
the music is so sweet. listening to it now. lolx.
k, k... i think i should go and bath.

Happiness is when you're walking down the lil' gravel path of life and you find different sweets on the floor now and then. That happiness is like finding the much longed for bar of chocolate or strawberry-flavoured gum and slowly savouring it. It always disappear too quickly. But the taste lasts for a long time and the memory is pleasant. But you'll never find one similar to it again. Never.

i think i'll continue and blog a bit more. feel so .... weird...
it's the same feeling i get when i was really really young? and my aunt came
to visit and after staying for like a month plus she had to go back to US
and i felt so... weird also. you know usually ppl will say you feel it
in your heart. but i feel it in my stomach. Hahahaha! maybe that's
why i keep saying it's weird. i mean. how many ppl feels with their stomach.
wow. i might just go and enter Guiness book of records.
how does it feel like? It feels like you crammed too many things into your stomach
and just had an operation to open it up and take everything out.
so it's like empty? i guess....
I really don't want to go bath. Cos' i promised myself that
after i bath i'll go study chinese 3B until morning. or until i finish it
whichever comes first.
I juz told emmy this but i'll say it again.
I don't want to go bath because i know that after that
all my feelings of happiness will just flow with the water
down the sewage hole.
all the stress and unhappiness of this inperfect world will come
back. that's why i said
I Love sec4 life. Yet i hate it.
how confusing.
i don't really want to grow up. You see people everyone saying that they want to grow up really quickly so that they can get a job or wear nice clothes or spend lots of money.
i don't
i just wanna stay where i am or even move backwards in time.
i'm happy here.
i'm happy being allowed to be childish at times
juz cos' i'm not an adult yet.
i'm happy with a group of friends around me.
i'm happy having June hols. and all other sch hols.
i'm happy being able to imagine and soar through
the skies and daze off suddenly and dream of the
wildest stuffs just cos' i'm not an adult yet.

I mean. how many adults do you see jumping up and down when out
with friends?
How many adults do you see laughing like crazy over some tiny thing?
How many adults do you see screaming when they hear Black Eye Peas
or It's All About You coming on the radio?
How many adults do you see suddenly breaking into dance steps or
acting crazy suddenly?
How many adults do you see making weird faces at each other?
[[really. treasure every moment of your life...]]]]

well... i guess i'm just afraid that as i grow older, i'll get so
stressed and watever watever until i turn into this grouchy
grumpy old lady who don't laugh at lame stuffs and think spongebob
is gay and a huge yellow disgrace and i would rather go watch some
very slow and very gloomy movie like The Pianist than Howl's Moving Castle
anytime. I don't want to be sensibly matured and have other sensibly matured adults turn their nose on me just cos' i said something really {DUH!}. I'm afraid i'll become like my mum. I realised that she never laughed before.
Isn't that impossible?
I mean. She smiles when she's happy. And when we say really funni stuffs, my sister
and i will just open our mouths wide and go "HAHAHAHAH!" but my mum
just widens her smile. I wonder why. Are we not allowed to laugh when we grow up?
I still wanna laugh when i grow up.
I still wanna think lame = funny when i grow up.
I hope my lame brain cells still work when i grow up.
I think it's already happening. I'm not as lame as when i was in sec2.
i can't count primary sch days cos' i was too bur to be lame.
Let's just take an example now.
If we caught our juniors doing crazy stuffs or playin Pepsi Cola 1,2,3, we'll just think
oh wells. lolx. crazy ppl.
If our juniors caught us making stupid faces or burping at each other,
they'll think. Omg. . . .. .

ARGH! i think i'm thinkin' too much. have half a mind to delete this whole blog.
should i?

heyX! i want to complain!

Val just dedicated a song to cedar guides [of course me included! hahahahha! ok not BHB k? but damn proud of it] on p10 and i MISSED IT! arrrgh! how could i?! i'm damn depressed! ~______~~~~~

24/7 i have been listenin to p10 and just THIS time i didn't on cos' i'm eatin dinner wif my mum and we didnt' on the radio and i had to MisS the dedication! ARGH! ARCHGHGHEC!


wat! ThE! HelLLL!




is my blog skin childish? somehow the longer i look at it the more sian i become of it. looks kiddish to me.

heyX! i want to complain!

Val just dedicated a song to cedar guides [of course me included! hahahahha! ok not BHB k? but damn proud of it] on p10 and i MISSED IT! arrrgh! how could i?! i'm damn depressed! ~______~~~~~

24/7 i have been listenin to p10 and just THIS time i didn't on cos' i'm eatin dinner wif my mum and we didnt' on the radio and i had to MisS the dedication! ARGH! ARCHGHGHEC!


wat! ThE! HelLLL!




is my blog skin childish? somehow the longer i look at it the more sian i become of it. looks kiddish to me.

heyX! i want to complain!

Val just dedicated a song to cedar guides [of course me included! hahahahha! ok not BHB k? but damn proud of it] on p10 and i MISSED IT! arrrgh! how could i?! i'm damn depressed! ~______~~~~~

24/7 i have been listenin to p10 and just THIS time i didn't on cos' i'm eatin dinner wif my mum and we didnt' on the radio and i had to MisS the dedication! ARGH! ARCHGHGHEC!


wat! ThE! HelLLL!




is my blog skin childish? somehow the longer i look at it the more sian i become of it. looks kiddish to me.

Omg. are you amazed?

i am


i am amazed i'm here blogging again.


i can smell the stench of rot and decay around here.

yuck


partially brain dead now.
believe that smelling more methane will contribute to increase in rate of brain decomposition. so i should stop blogging now.

pardon the words used. was studying bio.

Lemmie tell you......

(all those who heard it alreadi can skip this part lah)

our school decorate until look like Hong Lou Mong!!! hahahahha!
picture this: the courtyard is surrounded by low 2-story open air corridors that leds to a hall. All around the corridor railings are red streamers and HUGE red lanterns and those chinese crackers thingy (not prawn mind you). Then when you stand in the middle of the courtyard and let the red stuffs overwhelm you, you'll end up shouting "Hong Lou Mong!!!!!!". actually i don't even know what Hong Lou Mong is. it just sounds like it fits. hahaha! especially wif the HONG.

okkk enuff of that. oh btw, all those who haven heard it pls tell me just so that i can tell you becos' apparently i always tell it to those who already heard it from me.... hrm....

i've got abit of sore eye! i dunnoe why issit..... i didn't really rub my eyeballs that hard or got bits of weird stuff poking into my eyeball. so the only reason i can think of is that my monthly contacts [which i already wore for 2months plus] is ...... dirty! hahaha! but it has never happened before..... and my leg muscles are still malfunctioning.... oh no.... now that i list out everything i sounds like i'm so sick and dying. hope everything recovers before CNY so that it's not sooooo bad luck. am i being superstitious? but i really hope i recover super super fast.


hahahha! oh no... my sis just on the tv. some ancient chinese show with Stephen Chow. they playing those tingtingtingting music ... eh... can imagine? reminds me of Hong Lou Mong.... oh did i tell you that.......

oh nooooo Stephen Chow is sooooo funny. ok i'm gonna go watch that sshow. buaiz!